I pack tonight with mixed emotions..It is so surreal to be leaving to see your daughter for the first time. I'll be without Dennis and Mia. I'm going solo on this one. I know it is for the best since I won't be traveling to take Mazlin home. Dennis will be going with his Mom; which will be a very special trip for both of them and a special time to spend together. I'll be home with Mia. It just seems wrong to arrive home with a new little one (although, I know people do it every day), this way it will be more like a welcoming for Mia and me.
The second time around is much different. I'm not only seeing my daughter, I'm seeing Mia's sister. This makes me really emotional. All I can think of in looking at Mazzy for the first time, is what Mia will think and experience with this new addition. I've loved nothing more than being Mia's mommy. It has meant much more to me than I've realized. Being her mommy is the one thing I really feel like I've done well (even though I'm plaqued with doubt half the time) I know that I never want regrets and as long as I try my best, be honest and give lots of love...I won't go wrong. Dennis is a natural. He truly is the best father around. He's a great example for me to follow. Wish me luck. I'll post pictures as soon as I'm able.
Laurie
