I pack tonight with mixed emotions..It is so surreal to be leaving to see your daughter for the first time. I'll be without Dennis and Mia. I'm going solo on this one. I know it is for the best since I won't be traveling to take Mazlin home. Dennis will be going with his Mom; which will be a very special trip for both of them and a special time to spend together. I'll be home with Mia. It just seems wrong to arrive home with a new little one (although, I know people do it every day), this way it will be more like a welcoming for Mia and me.
The second time around is much different. I'm not only seeing my daughter, I'm seeing Mia's sister. This makes me really emotional. All I can think of in looking at Mazzy for the first time, is what Mia will think and experience with this new addition. I've loved nothing more than being Mia's mommy. It has meant much more to me than I've realized. Being her mommy is the one thing I really feel like I've done well (even though I'm plaqued with doubt half the time) I know that I never want regrets and as long as I try my best, be honest and give lots of love...I won't go wrong. Dennis is a natural. He truly is the best father around. He's a great example for me to follow. Wish me luck. I'll post pictures as soon as I'm able.
Laurie
3 comments:
xoxo! you are a wonderful mom! have a lovely
trip and please take a lot of photographs! love to Maz, she is going to love you! Be well.
N,L&A
Just the thought of your trip to meet Mazzy chokes me up. It seems like only last week that I came to Guat/Antigua to meet Mia (and found your house in Santa Rosa by following the off-tune singing that “someone” was singing to her new daughter). You’re right about this being an experience for Mi-mi, too, as she gets promoted to big sis. ...She’s going to love it! You’re an awesome mom and you will continue to be that same to both Mia and Mazzy. I can’t wait to hear about your weekend and see photos of you with her new daughter.
xxoo
K. (M, M & ? too)
Have a great time and give Maz lots of hugs and luvins!!
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